all this while when i tot noone loves me anymore..
i was wrong...
i was very very n gravely wrong...

as i was thinking of all my good times that has past,
n i tot my end was near,
in my head,
the Azan was wailing loudly n clearly..
soo clearly that i feel peaceful n i started to smile..
i feel soo much love...
i noe now in the midst of feeling unloved,
only one still loves me..
Allah S.W.T

now,
i noe the meaning of being a true
Muslim.
Amin..

well...
i noe is kinda bull shit lah havin a one week review..
but den im bl00die shacked by the tyme i get hme s00 i dun bl0g lah...

okie den...

MONDAY

m0rnin w0ke up verie fucking early man...
excited!!
wuu!!
POP!
keke...
g0 HQ as per n0rm..
expected drills all the way but change 0f plans...
g0t sum lecture...
den we practice..
POP nyte was HARD CORE FUN!!!
but post parade i c0ck up siah....
during the cadet officer creed,
Dr.Arthur Beng,Chairman NCC Council was ryte in fr0nt of me...
he l00ked at me and i f0rg0t my creed..
DAMN!
s00 kanch0ng dat i f0rg0t!
but 0verall,
fuN lah..
even g0t picture wid haikal..
keke...

TUESDAY

w0ke up and bathe..
rep0rt d0wnstairs...
den g0 lecture..
m0st of da tyme playing ar0und lah..
haha..
den during cert presentati0n,
slept during AAR..
haha...
yalah..
eyes heavy alreadie...
den,
aziz v0ice veri mel0dic..
lyke lullaby..
g0 sleep lah..
hack care..
haha..
t0ld fath0na t0 wake me up she als0 sleeping lah!
funnie2...
den g0 h0me as CDOs...
yeah!

WEDNESDAY

Earlie m0rn wake up..
mit 0ders..
g0 SDC...
fuck lah..
0nlie fun tyme was during SAFTI t0urs...
afta dat was verie fucked up lah..
verie b0ring..
with leg pain lyke hell..
climb here climb there..
stupid siah...

THURSDAY

same lyke yesterdae...
0nlie was quite pissed wid yuz..
i 4g0t why as0...
den disturb him lyke hell sum0re..
g0 h0me i cry siah...
felt s00 guilty...
den i msg hym as0...
den nex m0rn he reply sae nemind...

FRIDAY

m0rn g0t freestyle training...
oklah..
fun..
den g0 h0me sleep..
den wake up go sheng shiong...
den nyte g0 silat...

SATURDAY

m0rn wake up g0 HQ..
district meeting...
oklah..
fun..
but i dun lyke da way the seni0rs c0nduct demselves...
n0 respect t0 johnny at all..
haish..
wadeva it is its okie lah...
met up wid raj..
g0 makan...
at nyte,
go nyte walking in t0wn..
go eat and wadevalah...

TODAE

todae is the annual upgrading test..
all wen well xcept for sum c0ckups..
veri c0ckup wan..
haha...
0ching everywhere siah..
hehe...

okielah..
tired siah..
nid t0 d0 h0use ch0res summ0re..
=D
0utz

-AiN-

1 week review...

MONDAY

report at HQ..
feel veri scared..
den most of da tyme oklah..
lecture onlie..
tiring siah..
haha...

TUESDAY

more lecture..
dying..
but yuz make lots of jokes..
soo,
not soo dead lah...

WEDNESDAY

go ferst aid...
den,
we studie alot2 lah..
sat wit yus,tash,tan,hafiz...
den go cpr,
tan play wid dummie..
haha..
den da banadaging part all,
tan voluteer..
den da inst bandage hym...
funnie siah..
den talk dirty..
laugh until lyke wad..

THURSDAY

adventure traing..
play rockwall,MOC,high element,low element..
fun lyke hell one..
lazie to elaborate..

FRIDAY
morn got talk..
afta lunch,
when to SAFTI/MI
den pratice dining in..
den at nyte dining in...
in da bus,
goin back to hq,
both fiez n hana left a seat..
i left my things dere den sat wit tash...
den i asked tah to lent me his jackt..
he lent me siah..
den i wen to sleep on his shoulder..
den i aso hug him coz veri cold..
den i slept lyke dat all da way till hq..
once inside bunk,
knock out siah...
haha..

SATURDAY

diz morn bit cock up..
breakfast late..
den mas becum OIC...
we had fun lah..
den afta lunch,
mas disappear..
syndicate 2 in mph wid bravo coy...
den,i n yus sitting infront of syndicate 3..
hehe..
naughty us...
actullie we cum late dats y...
tan bastard siah..
he go say hi to haikal..
den he point at me..
fuck siah..
but aniway..
den syndicate 3 noisy..
den haikal shout at dem as to keep quite...
den tan stand up shout...
BLOODY HELL...
CAN KEEP QUITE ANOT?
we all laughung alreadie siah..
god..
haha...
den mas report sick..
gastric...
den hassan target me siah..
haiyo.
bcum OIC hafl dae..
oklah..
all i had to do was..
diam the course to greet camp commandant..
major chua...
hehe..
den i at ease dem..
den rest of da tyme i was jus sitting dwn do nutin..
hehe...


await more bout my journey as cdt..
pics of dining in at my multiply...
aindinna.multiply.com

sorie dorie strawberrie!

i got seamanship course last diz 3 daes...
den on mon i go collect unifrm...

MONDAY

wakey2...
fetch cadet frm skuul...
den go mit fieez n hanna...
den go hq...
half dying alreadie..
asked to cum back afta lunch..
wanna die sey..

okie..
den afta lunch,
cum back...
jin feng kena kick out,
den alfian dun wanna go...
feel lyke dying alreadie...
den no.3 shoe no stock..
den no.2 cannot fit...
still,
nid to rush n alter skirt 2 seamansehip course...

close topic...

i always stick wid da CNB kids...
dey r
TASHRIQ
FAIRUZ
FIEZ
FARHANA

tash,fiez n hana is my batch...
fairuz is a year older...
den he is da serious type of guy lah..
dun smile often one...
den i sae i'll make him smile more than anitin..
it was a challenge...


TUESDAE

mit all at mrt at 6...
den mr.fairuz cum late..
all happie2 coz new rnk..
go to course..
da teacher officer all picnic in the lecture rm..
we decided to follow dier example..
haha...
den i make jokes lyke norm...
den he keep smilling and i rallie lyke it wen he smile..
he looks better!
den go home...

WEDNESDAE

mit at 630 todae...
den go...
behave very well coz my ear was plugged in...
haha..
den reach dere verie happie..
noe y?
upperdeck was taechin us dat dae!
haha..
my specialist seamanship course inst..
keke...
as long as becum astomer
quick becum cute...
funny lah..
wen ever he sae upper deck,
we all at da back laugh...
lyke idiots siah...
den i disturbed fairuz,
make him smile..
den i sae,
U SMILE MORE HENSEM WAD?
den he blush!
den he stopped smillin..
i sae smile lah..
den he sae
SMILE ALOT2 LATER PPL TINK I CRAZY..
den i sae
SOO U SAEIN IM CRAZY IZIT?
den he smile..
hehe...

THURSDAY

we mit at 6+...
den go..
he smiled most of da tyme...
den in navigation class he sit ryte infront of me...
i found an eraser and broke it..
i threw small pieces at him...
den he turn...
i sae,
I DISTURB U COZ U NOT INVOLVED IN OUR CONVO...
den he jus turn n smile lah...
den i sae,
I DISTURB U K?
he sae
k...
haha...
den i disturb lah..
verie funnie lah dat dae...

todae

morn i met wit hamsey n darren..
teach dem do a dae of camp activity..
n also how to do proposal..
den met fiez n hana go HQ..
want to change shoe,
den sae still no stock...
i got my no.2 alradie!
woo!!
den mit da rest go beach rd...
as usual disturb him..
den he sae y disturb me?
i sae u sign contract for 2 years to disturb him..
den he sae where got??
dat for yesterdae onlie..
den afta dat,
i ask...
can i disturb u always?
he sae sure..
den we all laugh...
fun lah juz now...
lazie to xplain in dtail..

klah..
gud nyte ppl...

whoa!

werking liao!
hahaha...
soo fun lah..
but still..
feel very crappy...
sumtymes here..
sumtymes dere..
not permanent lah..
must rmbr diz..
rmbr dat..
haiyo...
leceh ler...

yeah2...
goin for CLT briefing diz sat..
can't wait!
wuhoo!
haha..
goin collect kit sumore...
soo happie!
life long dream goin to be realize..
i hope my gurl n guyz gonna be dere...
if not 4 me aso,
at least 4 alfian n jin feng...
haiz...
i reallie hope sumone wud be dere to put on my rank 4 me..
i haf diz fear of noone dere..
soo sad..
my happiest dae of my life in sadnest...
hmm..

u noe wad?
i haf diz creepy feelin dat,
im gonna mit hym one dae....
i hope i can at least see him...
i dun care...
in da arms of anoder gurl aso i dun mind...
as long as i see him,
n
i noe dat he is well,
i'm happie...
reallie2 happy...
i told muna,
i want hym back,
but den...
im soooo angry..
haish...

juz now aite,
werk wid muna...
den go playgrnd n play...
haha..
play3...
den go home...

fun siah....
tomolo is 12nn to 10pm!
fuyoo!!
banyak duit oooo!!!!!!!
hehe..
lame lah ain...

keke...
klah..
wanna retire....
tired lyke f**k!
=D

-AiN-

go zoo soo fun siah..
dunno itz gonna be dat fun..
hahaha...

go see diz..
see dat...
my mee goreng almost half inside alfian beg...
kekeke...
funnie dae though...
missing him all da way..
wondered wen he gonna msg me in da whole dae..

nemind lah if he alreadie has sum1 new...
i dun gif a fuck animore..
like how he doesnt give a fuck to me now...
biaserlah..
kentang goreng..
kekeke...

goin for my interview tomolo..
wee!!!
can't wait..
keke...

IM GONNA A CLT!!!
i got my selection letter..
soooooo HAPPY!
jin feng n alfian goin!
fizah aso...
N
IM DA FERST AND LAST FEMALE CLT IN SMB!
hahahaha..
like how im da ferst n last mount phir gurl for SMB..
kekeke....

okielah...
tired..!